I meant for this to be part of my last post, but my last post took on it's own character so I just ran with it. I finally mustered enough courage to email a tattoo artist in Poulsbo regarding apprenticeship. In instances like this, I'd almost rather hang upside-down, naked, from a balcony. I don't know why. I just have a very hard time putting myself out there. But, I did, and now I wait for a reply.
I mentioned in my previous posts how I'm more of an introvert. For a long time this really bothered me. What do you do when 75% of the population is an extrovert? Extroversion is celebrated. Everyone wants to hire someone peppy and happy. I've become quite the actress, but after six hours of working in an extroverted atmosphere I want to kill someone and go to sleep. Unpleasant to say the least.
This is probably why I hated college and did almost all of it online. This is probably why I'm happiest being left alone for hours upon hours at a time. This is probably why I love being married more than your average 20 year old college-party goer.
A long, long time ago I posted that I was ashamed I was so shy. I was ashamed everytime I went to Church and the pastor said there was no excuse to NOT get out there and preach to the world. That equated to crowds, noise, and uncomfortable situations. I felt guilty when he preached that we are supposed to be uncomfortable. True, but uncomfortable to the point of completely shutting down? It's not that I hate crowds because I'm cranky and hate people. I hate crowds because I simply cannot function. I cannot think. I panic. I'm so sick and tired of being made to feel guilty for being the way I am. This weighed heavily on my mind yesterday. So, naturally, I just went out to the beach and walked alone.
I'm not sure when it hit me. Maybe it was this morning on the beach over a cup of coffee. The perfect set up to just listen and think. Discipleship is always one on one. I can do that. I can do one on one. I can do quiet coffee dates. I cannot do more than two people at a time and still be running on full power. I am simply not able to. I'm fine with this. After this vacation, I am comfortable accepting that. Going full circle, as much as I am ashamed almost to admit tattoo artistry interests me (old fashioned thinking I know) I feel it will be the perfect profession. One person at a time. I can do that.
Introverts, though a small number of us, where created for a reason. Some people have to be grounded, otherwise the world would look like this-
I mentioned in my previous posts how I'm more of an introvert. For a long time this really bothered me. What do you do when 75% of the population is an extrovert? Extroversion is celebrated. Everyone wants to hire someone peppy and happy. I've become quite the actress, but after six hours of working in an extroverted atmosphere I want to kill someone and go to sleep. Unpleasant to say the least.
This is probably why I hated college and did almost all of it online. This is probably why I'm happiest being left alone for hours upon hours at a time. This is probably why I love being married more than your average 20 year old college-party goer.
A long, long time ago I posted that I was ashamed I was so shy. I was ashamed everytime I went to Church and the pastor said there was no excuse to NOT get out there and preach to the world. That equated to crowds, noise, and uncomfortable situations. I felt guilty when he preached that we are supposed to be uncomfortable. True, but uncomfortable to the point of completely shutting down? It's not that I hate crowds because I'm cranky and hate people. I hate crowds because I simply cannot function. I cannot think. I panic. I'm so sick and tired of being made to feel guilty for being the way I am. This weighed heavily on my mind yesterday. So, naturally, I just went out to the beach and walked alone.
I'm not sure when it hit me. Maybe it was this morning on the beach over a cup of coffee. The perfect set up to just listen and think. Discipleship is always one on one. I can do that. I can do one on one. I can do quiet coffee dates. I cannot do more than two people at a time and still be running on full power. I am simply not able to. I'm fine with this. After this vacation, I am comfortable accepting that. Going full circle, as much as I am ashamed almost to admit tattoo artistry interests me (old fashioned thinking I know) I feel it will be the perfect profession. One person at a time. I can do that.
Introverts, though a small number of us, where created for a reason. Some people have to be grounded, otherwise the world would look like this-
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